>> Monday, September 19, 2011
My Sunday School class is studying John Bevere’s book, Breaking Intimidation.
It's an amazing book and I’ve learned so much about my writing journey and myself. The focus is on the fact that the enemy wants to intimidate us out of using our God-given talents. We’ve all been given gifts and it is our responsibility to use them for his glory.
I’ve known for several years that being a writer is who I am: I was created to put words on a page. And I’m supposed to use that talent for him. The problem comes when I get afraid, insecure, lazy, etc.
In other words: intimidated.
The study has taught me about the ploys of the enemy and how he uses people in his quest to deter me. I must learn to recognize his tactics and by keeping my focus on God, I can overcome intimidation.
The way he generally gets to me is through my head. I often question what I'm doing, give in to my fears, and get too busy with life to write. Eventually my writing passion rears up and demands attention. Then a wrestling match ensues to see who will come out on top. It’s been running fifty-fifty.
Talk about being your own worst enemy
My passion actually has a name: I call it “The Grrrrrr .” It comes out of nowhere—kind of like a drive by. I’ll be innocently going about my life (getting ready for work, watching TV, driving along) when…WHAM...it hits.
An idea surfaces and the muse goes on the loose.
There’s no shutting him down and he will stay in my face until I give in and spend some time with him. I try to snag a few minutes to jot down general ideas, praying they will make sense later. Often by the time I get back to it, the luster has faded. And sometimes not. But when a story comes together, it’s like puzzle pieces clicking into place.
It’s the best feeling ever.
And I don’t believe in coincidences.
Interesting that the “grrrrr” theory has been rattling around in my head for months. But to fearlessly share with the courage of a lioness is a relatively new concept.
Kind of go together, don’t they?
I love it when he does that.